ostensibly shingles

documenting any of my illnesses or afflictions
preferably as graphic and gross as possible

“these films tell about the illusions people can construct for themselves. and why people need to construct illusions…what to do? create an illusion. be my guest…with an illusion in your head you can stand the loneliness better. be my guest…you learn so much about loneliness and how it makes us lie. and how wrong it is that we lie, and how stupid.”

-fassbinder on sirk’s the tarnished angels